The High of Surprise Gifts

joyful surprises, korean adoptee lunch

a shot of the decor at the venue where I surprised the band

Earlier in the month I got some stickers made for my bro’s band as a surprise. I wanted to make a moment out of it, so I put them into their own DIY packages and presented a set to each one of them in somewhat of a hyped up fashion. Now that I’ve written that out, I’ll tell you I’m intentionally glossing over a lot of details. I’m savoring the moment as mine, as ours. You can’t have it. I feel any further public admittance tarnishes the memory of it.

The lesson of surprise gift giving is to feel the pure rush of happiness that comes from it. It’s for the jolt of fun it’ll add to everyone’s day. It helps if you’re really amped up to give the gift. The night before I couldn’t sleep because I was sooooo excited! The delighted reactions they had were so heartwarming it felt inspirational. I was high on endorphins which is a feeling I haven’t feel, unassisted by anything else, in forever. I for sure thought I needed illicit substances to feel that high. Hugs were shared, and in the end, I think we all got a healthy buzz off that moment. It reminded me that this is what we’re here for. To create, share, and encourage joyful moments. Be a light, however you can.

recap on lunch with the korean adoptee

If you read last week’s post, you know I had ups and downs about going to lunch at my mom’s friend’s house to meet the friend’s adopted, Korean step-daughter (initially I thought it was her daughter). Unexpectedly, said step-daughter had just met her birth mother last year! She seems like she’s still processing it all really and said as much, although she also talked about it for a good amount of time. She has biological siblings, too. My mom had all types of questions for her. I had never seen her in this type of environment, having another adoptee to field adoption questions to. Sharing some details about my own adoption story that I’d never heard.

When we left we talked about how much we liked everyone there, but we did not talk about the adoption aspects, even though it took up a large part of the first hours of conversation. This didn’t really shock me. It’s possible that in her own way, bringing me there was my mom’s way of hinting to me that it’s okay if I want to search for my birth mother, but at the same time, it’s too difficult for her to say those exact words out loud.

but what i’m really up to…

• still living like a teenage me which is kind of blissss i’ll be honest …

• listening to my 2023 albums playlist on shuffle all day (total length: 23hr 42min)

• trying on Fenty Gloss Bomb (Fuschia Flex) - hot color! extremely sparkly!

• properly reheating a pork chop (1!) leftover so it wasn’t dried out

• logging my food intake and being good!

• shuffling away at my tarot cards. I don’t really know what I’m doing, but it’s kind of something sometimes, you know.